A Fear Born of Pride

I have no problem either thinking about or praying for others.

I do find it somewhat more difficult to pray for myself.

Granted, we are all God’s children.

I certainly have no problem thanking God for what He does for me.

When it comes to praying for my own needs, I simply did not want to approach God in a way that could make me come across as whiny.

That said, there has been something in my life I have held onto for some time.

I held on to it not out of need but rather out of fear.

I feared that letting go would be too difficult or too complicated.

To be completely honest, I found it much easier to simply ignore it.

From time to time people I knew would bring it up in conversation.

Each time I chose to simply ignore it.

Over the course of the last year the subject seemed to come up more and more.

In fact, one close friend became rather persistent about it.

He seemed determined to bring it up every time we got together.

To be frank, I was beginning to feel more than a bit annoyed with my persistent friend.

I was thinking about my annoyance with this friend one evening when something occurred to me.

Since I was not taking up this matter with God, perhaps God was taking the matter up with me.

Perhaps God was using my friends to get my attention.

Perhaps He was even using the persistence of a close friend to drive the point home.

That revelation shed a new light on things.

So, I turned to God in prayer and asked Him to help me to let go.

He did just that.

According to C. S. Lewis: “Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point to move forward.”

This led me to one inescapable conclusion whose basis can be found in the words of Isaiah.

Isaiah 43:18-19 (NET) - “Don’t remember these earlier events; don’t recall these former events. “Look, I am about to do something new. Now it begins to happen! Do you not recognize it? Yes, I will make a road in the desert and paths in the wilderness.”

If God has done as I believe He has, then I must also believe He has done so for a reason.

I do not know what He has planned, but I now understand that my letting go was vital.

I also know He will be an active participant in that plan.

Even at my age, I manage to learn and grow as a Christian.

Perhaps He will not need to be so persistent with me in the future.

Blessings,

Jim Pokorny

The Other Brother Jim

Look for me at http://otherbrotherjim.blogspot.com/ on Friday, January 12, 2018.

I’ll be back here on Friday, January 19, 2018